I wrote this song when my grief was brand new. I want to be very clear about the line “I don’t know where you are” though- I never had a doubt that my mother’s soul would end up in Heaven. That line pertains to specific circumstances that happened directly after her death:
- I wasn’t sure of the “rules” of going to Heaven. Would her soul be there immediately? Did she have to wait in some sort of limbo until Jesus came back?
- My family chose not to have a graveside ceremony, so we didn’t follow the hearse to the cemetery. Looking back, I realize I should have just gone myself since it was important to me, but I didn’t think of it at the time.
- I couldn’t find her unmarked grave when I went to visit the cemetery and became distraught.
I typically like to share things that will give people hope- I wouldn’t ordinarily share something sorrowful like this, but each time I hear this song it feels like a big part of who I am, so I decided to share it. Since I do strongly believe my Mother will greet me in Heaven someday, I hope to eventually write a more hopeful song about that.
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